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Well, it had been a week of studying, rushing back to work, studying and trying to mahjong all in the space of 4 days. I’m human and I fell to the flu bug during the long weekend. Sigh, the nose was running once again like a spolit running tap. I can’t even do a short period of studying. Sat around the whole weekend to rest. Never study.Went in the exam hall today and read through the paper. It’s relatively easy but I can’t remember the methods for the later 2 qns. It was like "Oh my gosh…How"…the heart felt something was acting on it. A sharp pain of stress. Luckily, I didn’t blackout at the hall. "It was just an exam, don’t need to stress, relax,relax." I kept telling myself..Got back to reality and decided to write some similar things that I hope they would be kind enough to give me marks. It’s really pathetic that I can’t even do a simple exam and had to do this kind of stuff. It would be a great miracle if I pass this subject. My classmates always felt I was clever, but, I think while I can grasp things fast, I can’t really memorise as much as them. It’s certainly no execuse I can’t do this paper today despite the illness.. People are breezing through, I there struggling. Wonder why, man. Maybe "Forrest Ming" only have a certain level of intelligence and can’t study ?? Another silly execuse..haha..I just have to accept that I haven’t found the right formula to juggle all my stuff. Or maybe I should just cut down on my committments to the workplace and my friends when I’m on leave for exams. Can’t be greedy and eat it all, I think. Pray that I find the formula soon ,if not, even give me 8 years, I also can’t graduate..or maybe one fine day, I may just drop off due to stress…Keeping my fingers crossed…

May the ONE up there bless me..

One of my guys ,who gave me a lot of problems last year, was on a long period of MC once again and was supposed to come back today. He didn’t appear as we thought he would be. Being concerned mgmt, my encik called him up at his home number. The guy didn’t pick up the phone for some reasons that we still don’t know why now,we got a bit worried. Thus, we went on  house call today. Upon reaching his home, we saw a group of very concerned family members there. He was still in bed and we asked him once again why he didn’t pick up the call. No reply on why. Sigh, it was like talking to the wall. Then his mum poured out all her woes and we realised that actually all along he was having a very serious alcohol problem. We knew of his habit of drinking away his life but he was telling me he quit when he became a family man. I was so angry that he lied to me again. Being someoe incredibly gullible, I believed him time after time after time. I believe he would change for the better. Well, think I was doing just doing the same things but hoping for a different outcome. How silly of me…Sigh. Only good thing today was that we now know what’s the real issue and we can start to find a way to tackle his addiction through medication and counselling for the right thing now. hopefully, he will pick himself up soon and not drink his life away.

Happen to have time to ponder over whether I should start being thrifty and save up now.Looking back  at the times my dad did his financial mgmt of the family, I figured I should start saving up real soon. I happen to have his genes of spending for the family ,yet scoorge to own self. Those gals whom I had interest in all were doted on. What I still need would be his excellent skill in balancing the sums. I was in admiration on how he managed to survived 6 months of doing odd jobs while he was paying for the cond he bought to make my mum happy. Surprising the family functioned like normal during those times and he only told us till much much later. I think the way he kept asking us to saving is good advice as he know I would be very much like him having a no budget for the family but tight budget on himself. I also would very like to have my wife not working hard to bring in money for the bills. I would rather I pay for everything while she keep all the money she earn. Then she can spend when she likes and maybe occasionally treat me to a holiday or what. No stress to leave any company in the event of a very negative company or boss.  To achieve that, I have to start to map out how I’m going to save while I’m still schooling now. Only good news is marriage for me don’t seem likely in the next 3 years. So still got a bit of time to work out things..Save save save…Love is indeed powerful…