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I saw an email at work last wed on a part-time course that my company was sponsoring people to go. Out of interest, I asked my direct boss if I could go. I think it was fate that he broke the news that I might be posting out. Later in the day, the news was broken to me that I will be moving out of my current workplace to a "Who-knows-what" position in higher HQ. I personally welcome a move to a new place as I felt a bit tired after 1.5 years in my current workplace.  Well, I can say that it came to me as a shock as the movement date is in mid June which happens to be a few weeks away. I was so upset as my dept is undergoing a merger with another dept during this few months and I felt as a leader, I should take them through this transition period. I also promised them that I will take them through. Now it’s like I didn’t keep my promise. Of course, on the other hand, no one will miss me as being opinionated, I have been quite a handful to my technicians, fellow colleagues, and even senior commanders. I treated my technicians like my sons and daughters and seriously, I’m still very attached to them. It’s the withering feeling that winter has on people. I just accepted reality today after 5 good days of sulking and I hope they will be more than happy to send me off when I break the news to them tomorrow.  I will dive into the pool of uncertainity once again as I take on a new working world as "Who-knows-what" post in HQ. May spring come soon and bring brightness into my new world.

Was watching the korean show "Da Chang Jin" on TV on Mon. For that particular eposide, the female lead, Chang Jin, was trying very hard to overcome the fear of doing acupunture on people after failing for the first time.( She almost killed her teacher in that attempt). She did overcome it eventually. I was pondering over my own fear of going out to start afresh in another 3 years time after spending a good decade in my current organisation. It’s quite common to see the current people spending their happy lives here till their contract expire and go out due to the "bo pian" circumstances. Well, looking at a handful of my friends who left, I think most of them are doing quite okay. Then I looked inside myself and the calls to go out and crave out a business or lead a life of serving the community seems quite strong. Certainly, being the typical "Gump" person, I neither have the cleverness of a shrewd businessman nor the nobility of the late Mother Theresa. Even my dad say I’m silly of thinking of it so fast. What he doesn’t know is that I’m not really doing very well in my career now and the passion is reducing with every other day.  I guess the greed of wanting to  completing my degree, serving the company well and pursing many other interests (excludes the pursing of a certain lady in USA) finally got to me now. LOL…Not doing well in all of the areas…I had a bad week in office and the nudging feeling that my big big boss is increasingly unhappy with me.While I will not back down in the face of adversity, the call of pursing my dreams out there is not to be ignored. Read a story on an eagle being raised as a chicken. It thot it couldn’t fly while the heart’s desire is to soar like an eagle. It died a sad "chicken". ( Concidentally, I shared with her the story too as the "what’s next" question is certainly closer to her heart now than my own) I can’t go on like this, I kept saying to myself. Either I re-ignite the fire or plan for my exit really soon before I die a sad "chicken" too.  May the awakening come real soon.

Finally have time to blog again..Too much books to disgest for the past 2 weeks…think I rather be out there working.Hm….I guess Singapore is having an election fever now..Interesting to see so many good candidates coming out to contest the wards. I think nowadays people are more willing to come out to speak out. It’s a good sign. I was appalled over some issues raised by WP during their rallies. Well, abolishing the GST on medical goods will surely bring down the medical costs in singapore as there are so many things that will benefit and end up cheaper for the average singaporean. It would be good if the other party offer some insights on what are the repercussions of this to have a balance view on this.There was another one on buying a HDB flat at 300K but end up buying it for 500k even though got subsidy. I guess there’s some truth in it as it’s worked out including the interest of a 25-30 year loan. Thot previously HDB goal was to make housing affortable to every singaporean. LHL had also a valid pointer on not giving such a excellent welfare system till people start relying on the government too much. I also don’t like systems where they taxed so much on the working people to feed some of those loathers…Only thing I want to comment here is that it’s only a bit sad that people are so used to having short term gains and goodies each party offer rather than seriously thinking about the long term. Well, who can blame them and me at times as we are so used to having these mini goodies like progress shares( was wondering if the money came from the taxpayers’ pool that I also contributed yearly). Hope the future situations don’t become a "if the party don’t give goodies, I won’t support your party" kind of thing. It sounds so childish,man…We are not the donkeys who are after the carrots. We are mature thinking adults, we have the knowledge and eyes to judge. Like what maraget thatcher went through to arrest the country’s problems with harsh decisions which benefitted the country but did put herself and her party in danger of losing support. I don’t mind suffering a bit for the benefit of the country. So I do look forward to improvements in the future through the parties co-operation after the elections are over. Hope they remember it’s not you vs me but you and me…..For a better Singapore!!!

Cheers,

ABHM