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Finally got to spend some time with myself today and I went to watch "The Leap Years". Enjoyed the plot with the familiar Corrine May songs playing, where I can connect with KS character and Li-Ann. I see the mirror where KS waited and waited for Li-Ann till he woke up. A good 10+ years before he finally woke up. I experienced waiting and waiting before for a gal and self esteem never felt worst during those days. "Okay loh" IS NOT "OKAY". *Ouch*

Li-Ann had a vision of a blue blurry image of the guy she was waiting for. I formed images of a wife since young and over the years, I seeked women who were tall enough to be kissed by me without difficulties, big beatiful eyes, well-endowed body and the long silky hair that captivates the world when swayed.

The other connection was where she was searching for answers through fortune tellers. There were people telling me this and that,however, I never found a gal who I connected with mutally. Now that I unlocked the emotional baggage of the approval and acceptance I sought from my mum  and dropping perceptions those people told me to look out for, I look forward to connecting and re-connecting with people without reservations as the real me.

It reminded me of a powerful experience during TM meeting on Fri where I presented Wedding 2010 as a topic. The moment my evaluator said was so real was when I shared how I just could not resist kissing the most beatiful woman in my life,with tears flowing down, after lifting her veil. I really could see it too with my eyes closed and the "back to the future" moment is just so strong. Maybe after this vision creation, the image of the woman of my life could just be clearer as 2010 dawns.

True happiness depends on how we define it and I could really sense the joy between jeremy and Li-Ann after years of waiting. I await that experience based on this quote by Oscar Wilde that was shared on the show," If you are not too long, I will wait here for you all my life"

It’s never too late to get married.So may the divine one grant me the courage to be alone like Jeremy and Li-Ann so that I will not marry for the sake for marrying

If visions are true, see all of you,my frs at Botanic Gardens in 2010!!!  If not, I’m sure the day will come for me and her to share our joy with you in our lifetime.

I was the Toastmaster of the evening last fri and our theme was "Spring". After researching, I found that Spring in one hemisphere was from Mar-May and Aug-Oct in the other. Amazing discovery. The other interesting thing was this poem by Robert Browing, a Victorian poet.

" The year’s at the spring
And day’s at the morn;
Morning’s at seven;
The hillside’s dew-pearled;
The lark’s on the wing;
The snail’s on the thorn;
God’s in His heaven -
All’s right with the world!"

Indeed renewal comes with spring where the beatiful sight of all the blooms,freshness in the air and the sense of light-heartness brings to the world a breath of hope,warmth and brightness.

The day the Lord created Hope was probably the same day he created Spring!!! ~Bern Williams.

I was attending Asiaworks course last week intensively. There were many rewards I gained like self-awareness, being myself, finding new support buddies, etc. The greatest breakthrough I had when we did the AW hug. From there, I finally saw beyond what the physical eyes could see. Beautiful souls.

Wondered why people say connected to souls when I was growing up…till this fine day came. Looking around, I’m become aware that it’s not the physcial body we interact with every day. It’s the soul. A soul that holds the key to one another, a soul that don’t define how love is to be,a soul that give and don’t demand, and a soul that is just so pure.

I don’t know how I felt when I was a nice baby in KK(just a cuddly,cute and lovely baby in a lovely pram), however, I now know why many connect with kids. It’s the purity of the souls they see in the baby/kid and one that connect hearts and makes parental love so powerful and selfless.

Thank you for the experience,fellow Skitters and to all my lovely people in my life, keep on experiencing and keep on loving!!!!

*HUGZ*

HM

Here’s another leaf from the book, "Embracing Uncertainity". The inspiration of the day goes like this," The ability to create pleasure today is one of the most powerful tools in life for helping us embrace tomorrow".

Remembered when I was small, I was an easily contented kid. I can be happy watching the box, eating mee pok at my favourite stall or minic superman flying around in the cinema while the show was going on. Looking forward to every day, I felt life was full of fun and laughter.

Yes, I was carefree, don’t have nightmares about work(just did on sat), only enjoying moments, like finishing a $2 dry mee pok and with that wonderful big packet of soya bean drink to go with in the morning, running down from my house with dad while the sun is raising to things like being able to reach home after school to watch ultraman. Had even look forward to piano lessons not because of piano but macdonald happy meal that comes with it.

Was there fear of the future? Was there unhappiness when things don’t go right? Was desires making me upset?? Can’t remembered much except I was a sickly boy who had stomach problems, always in my own world as I was the only child of my family at that point of time.

Troubles were always resolved when my grandma cuddle me, or I have sweets to eat, I have ultraman to watch,etc…

Interesting how we lost that ability nowadays to enjoy every day. It’s definely a timely reminder to take time to smell the roses, always saying kind words to people,irregardless of who, happy to be able to wake up every day, able to spend time with loved ones, and even being able to eat is something to be happy about.

So remember to savour today’s beauty to make tomorrow’s uncertainity much easier to bear.